I don't mean to put this off until Sunday night, I swear. I guess with all the "write a topic of your own choice," I'm sort of running out of things I want to write about right now. I have plenty of ideas, but I don't like writing things until they're full processed in my heads, which pretty much gets me into trouble all too often but still. All week I try to think about what I could write on here that would be thought-provoking and interesting and something I haven't done before, that I could work on, but I haven't felt like starting brand new things because I never finish anything anymore.

Once again, it's Sunday night and I need to write on here.

For one, I'm relieved that my roommate and I are talking again. It makes life a bit easier. I still have a huge storm of clouds over my head about other things though which is actually the main reason I can't seem to write anything different and new right now. Wondering how I'm going to survive these next two weeks because I'm a bit behind in work/studying right now. The other thing has been an ongoing issue with my cousin (because I lived with her most of my life) for quite a few years now, and it has just gotten worse and worse over the years.

"You can't run away from your problems." It's frustratingly true; I've in a way been doing it all my life, but it's never exactly successful. I've always moved from place to place over the years, never staying anywhere long enough to deal with the problems I have there (not my fault, I was switched around from relative to relative), but now because of that, I can't stay anywhere anymore. I get extremely bored, I can't be around the same people for so long. My aunt and uncle always travelled, so any time things weren't going well at home it didn't matter 'cause they'd only leave the next day, or in two or three days, and we never really spoke to each other anyway.

I miss the beach...I've always lived on the coast, and now I'm way too far away from it. I've always spent a lot of time at the beach. good times. We used to go all the time. I can't wait until Spring Break; the water's too cold, but the air at the beach is so different. I would go into detail about the beach, but I already spent about half hour describing it in great detail to a friend which made me really deprssed because I miss it so much, so I may actually be extremely grumpy in the morning now. I know I'll have a dream about it tonight and then wake up to the slap in the face of reality that I'm nowhere near the coast. I really need a break and it needs to come now.